Edge

I have been torn between my mind and my heart.It feels that I'm on the edge wanting to take that plunge just waiting for that rush of unknown but that line keeps me tied.The life in wilderness looks so good that I am ready to leave everything for it,its what I always wanted,with all its pain and sorrow it still is what I always I wanted because I know the happiness that lies at the end of it,its just that I'm tied to something which is equally strong and enchanting.Someone said once that You cannot have the best of both the world and now I know what he meant.Why is that I've started feeling the pleasure and pain of unknown even in my mundane life,why do I keep on secretly looking for that rush when I know there are no surprises.Probably that's what I always wanted but never realised.Its coming all clear now as to why I used to climb trees as a child which were impossible to climb,I was just looking for that rush,that high of breaking away from tradition,that ability to keep a balance amidst a storm and I believe I have been looking for this all my life.
I always that and wanted to be a traveller but have always been glued to the ground by some or other ties and this one time I want to break it and float away.The  urge is so great that it keeps me awake for nights.

Why do I wish to take this jump,why do I wish to wake up with that high,that sensibility,that controlled composure because behind that control is a freak,is a wildness which is more stable than a balanced act.It has made me do thing which I always wanted to do,it has that streak of calmness in the face of storm that I always wanted.

Aptly said and sung by someone " Ye raat ke musafir tu bhagna sambhal ke ".

I don't wish to be a child of misery and sorrow but I need my wildness where Iam not judged by what Iam but by who Iam.I want to travel and see the world  and this worldly things really do not matter to me,I could die for that right one in one night and regret never.All that makes a difference is that single smile and life is not worth more than that,at the end of it all of us are some ash thrown across some stream as there are no rivers left and nothing more.

Someone sang this " Duniya paheli,kya sawal hai,uljha uljha sa khayal hai,harsh hai yha jaise raaz hai,padna chao to kitab hai ".

Though its very cliche to say that Iam like an open book and you just need to know how to read me or have the apt to read it,but this is a fact.All of us are end of the day just like an open book its just the effort that others make to read us and more than reading understand us.

That tug to jump for unknown when you are tied to a secure line comes only when you want to do it and when you realise that it was always what you wanted.Some are quick to realise it and some are so late that by the time they realise it they are not fit to stand forget about the plunge.

Of all things that matters to us 90% are not even worth giving a second thought,its only that we realise it in our own time,and we have been thinking about them because we had nothing better to think about.

Its not choices which makes life difficult but the absence of right choices at the right time which makes our miserable for times to come.

I don't wish to regret at least not this time,I am happy dieing with a smile rather than satisfied because when you are satisfied you have compromised.

I need that jump and that's all I want !!!!!

Raat aadhi

Raat aadhi kheench kar meri hatheli

Ek ungli se likha tha pyar, tumne.
Faasla tha kuchh humare bistaron me
Aur charon or duniya so rahi thi.
Tarikayen hi gagan ki janti hain
Jo dasha dil ki tumhare ho rahi thi.
Main tumhare paas hokar door tumse
Adhjaga sa aur adhsoya hua sa.
Raat aadhi kheench kar meri hatheli
Ek ungli se likha tha pyar, tumne.

Humsafar

I see you nowhere but I still feel close to you,don't know why and how,but the easiest and most difficult thing for me is to know you.I cry in my sleep at times because you are in pain,have felt lonely in midst of a crowd and have felt you around when alone.People call me crazy when they find me smiling for no reason but all that Ive been doing is thinking about you.You are so close yet so far.I can feel you smiling and calling me crazy right now.
I never knew the meaning of soul mate till I met you.Have never felt so complete till I met you.The fun and laughter shared with you are like treasures for me.That smile of yours,that child in you keeps me intrigued and makes me want to be there by your side.No one else can balance that demanding yet forgiving side of you the way you do it.At times I feel you are an angel fleeting across times touching lives and making them happy.No one can be as wild and submissive at the same time as you are.
Have never seen someone so honest and pure at heart the way you are and that makes me worry about you more.

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It was an awesome trip ... we drove all the way from Delhi to Kashmir and then to Leh via Zozila and back through Barlacha into Manali and then back to Delhi..In total we covered 4000 km.
We crossed the world's first four highest motorable Roads.

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Kashmir & Ladhakh

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Rising Sun


Me trying hand at rock climbing

Leh Golf Course
My fav stopover on the way to Manali

World's Highest Golf Course
Me and my Bike .... on my way